Tuesday, June 03, 2003

Jumping Ship
Spare Parts and Leftover Screws

Without a regular connection, it has been tough to motivate myself to keep this site current. And it isn't going to get better. This is the last of the sporadic posts for a couple of months. Tomorrow I leave for Nairobi Kenya for a stint as an airplane mechanic. I'll write about it when I get back, but until then...have a great summer.

Monday, June 02, 2003

Do What Feels Good
Rants and Delusions

"Do what feels good." I guess that is the new Diet Coke slogan. Sounds good. Doesn't really make me thirsty. Don't really see the connection.

"Do what feels good." That is the biggest crapload of horse manure I ever heard of. It is also the saddest way to live life. Life is not an amusement park of pleasure, set spinning around us for the sole purpose of our enjoyment. Nothing could be more directly opposite of reality. Not the reality that I live.

Emotion is to be enjoyed or merely tolerated, not obeyed. Life is full of tough choices and painful decisions. Obeying feelings cannot be a reliable guide. It does not feel good to feel something so strongly it is almost overwhelming, yet chose to let it go because it is right to do so.

Just something that has been running through my mind. No particular reason. Ok, maybe one.

Perhaps I will fill this in a bit more later on. I'm too tired right now. Sorry that there are more fragments that actual sentences. I just did what felt right. Grammar didn't.